Time is ticking…

Within the last few years, I can really feel the gravity of time and the wrong choices I have made in my life.  Choices that seemed right intellectually, but were perhaps not a great fit for me personally.

I feel anxiety about my lack of productivity.

I am going to work on producing something (ANYTHING) that is a finished creation on a weekly basis.  I’ve just come back from vacation so I don’t have much.  I’m posting a video that I did a few weeks ago, that I didn’t really say much about.  Basically I entered the NPR Tiny Desk contest.

I have anxiety about my limitations.

I have anxiety about not having expensive enough equipment for my creative endeavours.

I feel like I’m stuck in quicksand and not progressing fast enough.  Not moving fast enough.  Not schmoozing near enough.

Anyway here’s a video of a song that I wrote and that I sang on video.

 

 

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Could you, would you, in a box?

lyric

Sometimes I worry that it might be confusing to the people who like my photography that I also do other things.

Photography is readily accessible and it only takes about a half a second for someone to glance at one of the photographs that I have taken.  And I am glad that people like my work.  It’s great that people will sometimes say nice things like, “Ooh, your pictures are pretty!”.  However, it is really only a small part of the art that I like to create.

I’m also a painter.  I tend to paint weird things, like Japanese rock stars looking at baby polar bears.  I’m usually telling a strange story, which is perhaps less accessible than pretty wedding photographs or portraits.  But it’s fun.

But music feels (and has always felt) the most important to me… because I am secretly a musician.  I have been writing and recording music for… many years.  This is generally harder to share, not only because I am bad at even sharing the basic information that I am a musician, but because it’s also a significant time investment for people to listen to music that isn’t shoved in their ears.  And I’m not the type of person to do that.  Unless you are a passenger in my car… or a visitor to my blog (^_^;)

I guess more importantly, I am all of these things and I am none of these things.  People ask what my day job is and I tell them (grudgingly) as I do not feel as it accurately reflects who I am as a person.  I am also of average height and Asian-American in case anyone is asking or somehow thinks it is relevant.

Some people LOVE boxes and categorization.  Being in a box is more accessible and familiar than not being easily categorized.  But I was born into a shade of grey.  Conforming was never really a great option, but I tried for awhile.  I don’t recommend it, unless that’s your thing.

(Note: You could wake up ten years later and realize that you’ve forgotten what you are supposed to be doing.  And you wasted all of that time conforming to some sort of  lifestyle that you never truly believed in.)

So it may be time to ask yourself… are you conforming to someone else’s expectations?  Conforming to some absurd expectation our society/culture places on us?  Conforming to some ideal that you will never attain?  How did you get there?  How will you leave?  Will you stay…?  Will you leave…?

Photo Filters and a brief review of Aviary

Thanks to all of my followers! 🙂 Lately, I’ve been working on backing up a lot of my photos on Flickr.  While on the site, I’ve been checking out the filters in the built-in photo editing program there called Aviary.  … Continue reading

Flower Obsession

So my fascination with flowers has grown from photography to gardening to a sketch for a new tattoo to even more ideas that I don’t want to talk about before I complete. I think this might be one of my … Continue reading

Tulip Envy

I’ve complained a lot this year about how terrible my tulips looked.  Everyone else seemed to have tall, beautiful tulips!  Like this one!  This is a tulip from my friend’s house. I don’t know much (anything really) about caring for … Continue reading

petals

petal

I have been eagerly waiting for SPRING all winter, and I found it necessary to document the spring blossoms before they fade away.

Here is a photograph that I took on Sunday, before the frost we had.  My hands were frozen, but I was determined!

I shot this on aperture priority with my 35mm lens on my old Nikon DSLR.  I’ll be posting more soon 🙂

The Classic Ferris Wheel Shot

wonderwheel

Ferris Wheels are a pretty popular subject for photographers.  After all, they are a very recognizable feature of any carnival or theme park.  I wanted to see how far I could take this image away from how it looked on that bright and sunny day.

This is the Wonder Wheel, located in Coney Island, Brooklyn, NYC.  According to Wikipedia, it was built in the 1920’s.  If you go to NYC, Coney Island is a fun place to see and the view from the top of the Wonder Wheel is awesome!

Portraits

Christine, Depot Town

 

So I really like taking pictures of landscapes and flowers, but I also love taking portraits.  Dramatic portraits are fun!

This is one of my favorite portraits that I have taken.  The model for this photo shoot was my sister-in-law Christine!  I had a little bit of luck with the great light from the setting sun, a great location and a person who is comfortable in front of a camera.  If you are looking for a photographer and are in the Ann Arbor/Metro Detroit area, I am available for commission 🙂

Lotus

lotus

Thanks to all of the people who are now following my blog!

Here’s a picture of a lotus among the lily pads.

As you may know, the lotus is an important symbol in the Buddhist religion.

I love photographing flowers, and hope to start posting some of my photographic prints on etsy soon 🙂

 

 

 

Waiting for Flowers

Waiting for Flowers

I have been looking through my spring photos from last year. The winter has been long this year, and it’s finally starting to feel like spring. I’m thinking of starting a small business selling some of my photographs as prints, … Continue reading

But life got in the way…

Autumn has left the trees bare… here’s a picture I took earlier, when the leaves had just started to change.

Unfortunately, I’m pretty far behind on everything, including posting pictures.  I have a bunch of beautiful photographs that I took this year that are still hidden on my computer…

It’s hard to escape the crushing obligation of working for someone else, or the dreariness of mundane tasks that need to be done, instead of doing what you want to do with your life.
But I hope someday I can spend my life documenting these little moments in time.  It’s what I love to do.